The Calm

You know how when you make a huge decision, there is this calm that comes after it? For example, when you decide what college you’re going to, if you’re going to break off a toxic relationship, if you’ve just selected an apartment, ooor if you’re going to follow your dreams. On the one hand, you’re so excited. But on the other, it feels surreal and you wonder if the universe might yank this happiness right out of your hands.

It’s like a fog, that creeps over a the top of a hill and slowly settles into the grass. It’s just fog, but you still get that weird theres-a-monster-in-the-fog sort of feeling. (Shout out to The Mist for making me paranoid of fog & mist). But seriously, when the calm falls over you, it leaves you devoid of all of the excitement that you thought you’d have.

During this time, you may even keep the good news to yourself. Even though there really isn’t any logical reason not to share it with your friends and family, you just want to pretend it didn’t happen. As if you could somehow jinx this choice and it would be spoiled forever. When your friends ask you, “So, whats up”, or “How have you been”, you answer “Nothing really”, or “Fine”. In reality, you have this great news to share, but you save it for another time.

No fear, the calm only lasts a little while. Then the joy and celebration can begin. But, it’s weird, isn’t it? Maybe it’s just me, but whenever I make a big decision or something really good happens…there’s radio silence. Two weeks or a month later, I’m fine and blabbing to everyone about how happy I am – like the calm never even happened.

Oh well, it’s almost Friday everyone! And I’ve still got that good news to tell you tomorrow….

 

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