So, I made a decision today that is going to change my life. Whether it is going to make it better or worse, I can’t be certain. Buuuuut, I’m pretty sure it’s going to make it better. I’m trying not to let reality scare me into changing my mind, but I can say that I feel the pressure.
I have been trying to wrap my head around what I want over the last few months. It’s really difficult to step back and think, what do I really want from life? Although I took a lot longer than I thought I would, the trip that I took in February pushed me quite a bit. I came back from that week thinking “How did I not know this about myself”? It’s funny how you continue to learn things about yourself as you age.
I have a goal now. I HAVE A GOAL. With that in mind, I believe that I can do anything. I’m making the decision to choose my reality, over what the world wants me to believe my reality is. I know what I want, I know the opportunities out there and I know how hard it’s going to be. Let me tell you, it can’t be any harder than living the way that I am right now.
I started my day just like any other day, with the same face, clothes and heavy shoulders as I walked into work. I walked out of that building a new woman; one with a purpose. I had a secret smile, a skip in my step and a light at the end of the tunnel. Who knew so much could change in eight hours?
The decision has been made and this Friday it will be official. I won’t ruin the surprise for you, I’ll write a post in celebration when the time comes. Until then, I’ll be here anxiously twiddling my thumbs waiting for Friday to come.