For a Monday, today was okay. I’m one day closer to the weekend, so I can’t complain. I had a fairly important meeting today which ended up going well. I felt really good about how everything went. However, it did leave me with one thought that is now tormenting me, ping-ponging around in my head.
How do you tell the good guys from the bad guys*? This may seem like a really random thought to have after a work meeting, but if you knew the context, you’d understand. Just because someone is really friendly, it certainly does not mean that they are a good person. But the naive side of me really wants to believe that everyone has good intentions. I don’t believe in bad people, but bad intentions.
Even so, how do you know whether their intentions are truly good or bad? I’d like to think that I can tell, but if I am being honest with myself…I have no sense for this sort of thing. I am not a people person, but I am not a mean-spirited one either. It’s important to know, though. I don’t want to share certain information with people when they may just use it for a negative cause. I do want to share specific information with people who could benefit from it.
I am friendly to everyone, even if they are unfriendly to me. That’s just who I am. Kill them with kindness. But sometimes it is so difficult and frustrating. If I knew who had bad intentions, I would still be kind to them. However, I would simply share surface-level information with them as opposed to the meaningful stuff.
Maybe I should just stay surface-level with everyone. But as a human being, I would like at least two or three relationships in my life to be meaningful. I think that is a natural longing that everyone has, even if you stuff it away. Typically, I am not the sort of person to admit this sort of thing, but I’m coming to grips with reality. I want to build memories and that is hard to do when I keep so much to myself.
Today’s post was sort of random. Maybe it’s a part of my quarter-life-crisis. Do you ever wonder about people’s intentions? How do you deal with it?
*By guys, I mean people. I just like referring to it as “bad guys” vs. “good guys”, because that is how dramatic it feels in real life.