New Eyes

What a week. What a kick-you-while-you’re-down, spit-on-your-neck, leave-you-high-and-dry, kind of week. I’ve had so many thoughts that I’ve wanted to share, but none of them really correlated enough to make one whole post. I may just start writing a mixed-playdough sort of blog, because that’s obviously where my mind is at.

One thing that has been heavy on my mind is the different ways that people see the world. Each one of us sees the world from a totally different stand point that is unique to our experiences. You know how when you really believe in something, then you find out that it’s not real and that totally changes your perspective on the world? Sort of like when you find out that Santa isn’t real. It changes Christmas for you completely. Instead of staying up late, listening for hooves on the roof, you sleep soundly knowing that your parents will be filling up your stockings.

Well, it’s sort of like that….but on a much larger scale. So, therefore, beliefs play a big part in the way that people view the world. People begin to see things differently as they learn. I, for one, have learned a lot about animal cruelty and mass production. This has lead me to make different food choices. Perhaps if more people knew the facts about their food that I know, they would make the same choices that I have. I’ve also had the opportunity to grow up surrounded by a bunch of wild animals. From hatching snapping  turtle eggs that were found on the side of the road, to raising baby lizards, I’ve gotten a different perspective on animals. I now see kindness towards animals as a necessity in life, and I am intolerant of those who are cruel to them. It’s because of my experiences.

Similarly, everything that I have done leading up until now has given me this yearning for more. Perhaps it was the way that I pursued my education online, or working nonstop since I turned 15, or even my new job. Either way, this year I have been seeing life in a way that I’ve never seen it before. I want more. I don’t know if I will ever have more, but I will always want it. I find no satisfaction, happiness, or fulfillment in my current position. I don’t think a job change will cure this feeling. I think I need to totally uproot my life and change the way that I live in order to find what I’m looking for.

I just wish I knew what that was. I’m glad that I’ve become so enlightened in regards to my current situation, but that only helps me so much. Do I want to be a model, a singer, a business owner, a blogger, a videographer, an animal rescuer, a travel critic…..? I have no clue. I feel like it’s on the tip of my tongue. I’m on the cusp of something, I know it. I’m just so impatient that it feels like eternity that I’ve been waiting for a life-changing epiphany. Oh well, all that I can do is keep trying.


What about you? What has changed the way that you see the world?


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