I could not be happier that this week is over. However, I’m already dreading the predictable Monday that will arrive in less than 48 hours. I don’t know how to get out of this funk that I have been in…but I know that if I don’t, I’ll stay in this position forever. I feel like a big fat boulder that wants so badly to move, but doesn’t have legs. I just want to be able to show someone what I am capable of, tell them what my vision is, and then have them pay me to do it.
How do I prove to the world that I am functional? I have what I think are some great ideas, lyrics, skills, etc….but I don’t know how to display them. I’m too shy and quiet to just go to a bar and sing, or just quit my job and start traveling. I’ve mentioned this before, but I’m the type of person that usually requires a plan before I’ll do anything. I’m becoming more open to proceeding without a plan, it’s just going to take some time.
I don’t want to live your typical white picket fence life. I’ve seen it too many times and it makes me sick just to watch it. The wife works an 8 to 4 until she has her first baby. Then she stays home to take care of it, working night and day to be sure that baby is safe. Meanwhile, the husband works his 8 to 4 that he hates. He comes home after a long day to a crying baby, a stressed out wife and a dirty kitchen. The husband feels like his wife did nothing all day because the house isn’t clean. The wife feels like the husband gets to escape everyday and have a normal adult life while she is stuck at home. They both suffer in silence, but wish that they had done more fun stuff before they decided to settle down.
That little paragraph above ^ might as well be a horror story. I am so afraid of that whole scenario. It’s a really sad tale, but an all-too-common one. I’m not saying that all families in this position are miserable, but I know that I would be. I want to travel, and live in different places at different times. Maybe have a cabin in the country somewhere that I can come back to in-between expeditions. But, I suppose a lot of people long for this lifestyle.
So, how do I become functional enough to have financial freedom and the ability to do what I want for a living? How do I make myself irreplaceable? I spent a long time trying to figure out what my natural abilities are. Now that I have a basic understanding of what I’m good at, I need to learn how to focus on those skills and make them useful.
I have a couple of things in the works that I’d like to share with you, but I’m not quite there yet. Perhaps in a month I will be able to show you what I have been working on and the progress that I have made. It’s nothing big..so don’t get excited.
What are your natural skills?